Figments of My Imagination

It’s always interesting this time a year for me 

as a new year begins I turn of age 

January 1st 1991 

it not only makes me think back of how the year played out, but also how I spent it that age 

this past year has been full of shit with very little highs and too many lows 

I feel like I wasted a lot of time this year doing nothing yeah I go to school and I had two jobs got accepted into a University and already have 2 degrees under my belt 

but other than that I haven’t done much with my life 

I’ve lost a lot of friends that were important to me and I’ve completely erased my social life

well now I’m turning 21 and I’m nervous as hell because I don’t want it to be like last year or the year before 

and I  can sit here an say shit like “2012 is gonna be good to me blah blah blah” but I honestly have no idea I would like  it to be different in a positive way, but I don’t know 

I just don’t want to look back ten years from now and regret the time I lost doing nothing, but go to school 

people have resolutions for the year like wanting to lose weight or finding the “one” or getting that perfect job or whatever 

all I really want from the new year/turning 21 is to get me back and have some REAL friends, nothing fancy